Today has been such a day of reflecton for me. I found myself thinking "One year ago, I was waking up rubbing my tummy, wondering what you would look like, who you would be" or "A year ago, everyone went to Chili's to eat, and I stayed home, I was too nervous to socialize" I remember at 1:00, Daddy was driving me to the hospital with Nonna and I was crying. I was overwhelmed, would I be a good mommy? Could I provide for you the life you deserved??? At 2:00, we were checking in and I remember thinking " I have to tell daddy that if something happens in the delivery room, he has to tell them that YOU come first.. (yes, your mommy is VERY dramatic.. ).. At 3:00, I had my IV, Daddy was in his little outfit and Auntie Sue Sue was all dressed as well. Time for the drugs and then, the next thing i knew, Dr. Kleinpeter was there and it was GO TIME! At 4:00, they started cutting my tummy and at 4:15, your daddy leaned down and whispered to me, "we have a son". Relief like I had never known in all my life rushed through me. A love that I did not know existed warmed me from my head to my toes, and when I laid eyes on you for the first time, my life was complete.
Mommy had to go to recovery (which was quite lonely without you and daddy) and you went to the nursery. You had some problems breathing so when they wheeled me to my room, I was expecting to go into a room full of people and of course YOU.. imagine my disappointment when i found it was EMPTY. The phone rang, it was the nurse making sure I was there, and she let me know that you were doing great, just had to get your breathing to normal. Finally daddy and family made it down to reassure me that you were still as perfect as I remembered. At 7 30 that night they finally brought you to me. I held you close and we talked.. yes, you cooed at me and we had the best conversation.
This past year has been filled with such joy that you have brought to my life.. your personality is so sweet.. you make people everywhere smile. I cannot take you anywhere that someone does not mention your beautiful eyes or sweet smile.
When Uncle Josh died, you were the glue that held everyone up. Anytime that anyone was sad, they rushed to hold you. When mommy feels down, all I have to do is look at you.. and you always know when I need a smile or a kiss.
I cannot wait to see what the next year brings, but it is so bittersweet, because I realize that what they say is true, time flies.. and before I know it, you will be all growed up... please know that no matter where you go in life, your mommy and daddy are always here for you, we always will love and support you and we will ALWAYS, without a doubt, be in your corner!
We love you our precious son~
Mommy and Daddy
One year ago:
Today: (Battery went dead after bath time, more pictures to come soon!)
See My Teeth?
Brr Granny... that's COLD
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